As I take this journey into loving, nurturing and caring for myself and inspiring my sisters to do the same I fully have to acknowledge that there are times when I forget my magic. I cosign and witness the magic of my beautiful sisters daily and sometimes spend so much time cheering and watching them win that I forget to hone my skills and go for the win as well.
Recently I was hit with a bad case of FOMO. You know that corny acronym for Fear of Missing Out that was recently introduced to the Oxford English Dictionary, I was experiencing it. I noticed I was spending way to much time on social media “working” instead of working on my own project that I know is necessary and will add value to the community. I was salty I wasn’t “good enough” to get an invite to SXSL and watched the hashtag second guessing my skills when I have no clue as to selection criteria. I missed a wedding that I had planned to go to because I didn’t confirm my sitter and low-key because I didn’t feel like I had anything good to wear. Then I searched Facebook like a fiend for picts to see who was there and then wallowed in the fact that I wasn’t. I even started questioning why I stopped designing products because I fell in love with a book that my friend recently published that had I still been pumping out designs I felt I would have surely made the cut for. I can go on and on because the past two weeks I spent feeling as though I was missing out compounded insecurities and left me with a disheveled house, nails that I hadn’t painted, unfolded laundry and hair that was neglected. I found myself in a funk. For those that know me well know I am in a funk if I don’t make my bed or leave dishes in the sink overnight.
I am sharing this because I know I am not alone, I watch my friends get overwhelmed by FOMO and sometimes even cosign the foolishness instead of reminding them to never forget their magic. We have work to do, something that we alone were divinely created to do, whether its to sing a song, write a book or post, design an app, paint, teach, save or defend a life and the list goes on. When we divert our attention to others because we have chosen to procrastinate or let the lizard brain sneak in and tell us that we are not good enough we forget our magic.
If you like me somehow forgot your magic leave a comment and share one thing you will commit to doing this week to share your magic. I hit refresh for myself by going to an great event last night and committing to going to another this weekend. (I work from home and find it easy to hide my magic so I am trying to get back out more.)
There is no easy solution to kicking a funk, sometimes it is simply getting up, logging out and putting in the work. That can be an extremely challenging practice in self- care but one of the most valuable things you can ever do for yourself. Now go share your magic.
